Endless Season

Stuck at Christmas ’14.

All the world aglow; lights and what perfect cheer.

Let your heart be light.

When the world froze. Our world froze.

Time ceased to exist while simultaneously and loudly counting down.

God I miss you.

Smell, feel, warmth, light.

Everything, everything.

It is still 2014 and I’m raising my effervescent glass to midnight willing it to spin back. Reverse, reverse.

More time, more time.

Life went on but my heart stopped here.

In yuletide.

The marvelous rich roll in that voice;

Through the years we all will be together

If the fates allow…

If a deal were struck…if I was better, if this was different.

But all that is…

A moment, blinking, melting, fading. Precious.

Have yourself a merry little Christmas now.